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Name: Crazy Bitch
Home: Portland, Oregon, United States
About Me: I've always enjoyed writing, so long as it's something I know about - like me. I'm a student. A mother. A sister. A homeowner. A perfectionist. I try to keep them as separate as possible, but sometimes they intertwine - which is NEVER a good thing. I love shoes. I love dancing, although I don't really know how. I love loud music, bonfires and the occasional glass of beer. I love my family. I love my life. And ever so slowly, I'm learning to love myself.
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| Saturday, June 28, 2008 |
I miss C. I know she was insecure and after attention constantly. I know she had unhealthy habits, and was a total bad kitty - but she was damn powerful. And I put her away. Closed the door and moved on. Something I am so very good at.
But she wants out.
I've seen glimpses of her on occasion - in the Red Room, when I'm with Si or Paco, or dancing with Isis... I'm trying to understand how to release her without letting her get out of control. I want to feel that power without having to look over my shoulder.
Who is watching?
Who is watching?
Who is watching?
I searched for C. this morning. I didn't have to go very far to find her. I knew where to look. And she's out there.
That idea is scary as Hell.
I cannot put that crown on again.
I CANNOT put that crown on again.
How easily we can fall back into our addictions that have been set aside for years.
And we do it in the speed of the flash of a camera. |
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